Wednesday, May 20, 2009 Y
ytd was such a depressing day. felt super super depressed and emo at the end of ytd. got back gp and bio papers. failed. very badly. haiz... i've done my best but still no use. i dunno how i'm going to survive thru my 2 yrs(hope it wouldnt be more than tt) in hci. feeling inferior and stupid. the sadness and emo-ness in me must be accumulative and ytd finally, i couldnt take the blow. it was seriously too hard for me to take. nv in my life had i felt so xin ku before. the loneliness, the inferiority, the sadness... i've nv felt all that in cedar before.. i dun wan to be called a slacker anymore and i dun wan to be one. i hate slackers. teng boon hui, tell urself to stop slping so much! jiayou, i'm sure you can do it!!!tot everything will be ok by today. but this morning, reached sch early and strted to play the game in my phone but as i play, i felt lyk crying again. hai.. going to get depression very soon if i continue to be lyk tt. wasnt even looking for combined sports meet(csm) [keeps reminding me of company sergeant major la] anymore. and in the end it was rly smth that was not worth looking forward to. the csm was so screwed. there were so many ppl walking around. no sch spirit at all, unlike cedar. we cheered lyk mad last time and 'decorated' ourselves colourfully. ah.. miss those days:( in the end, i ended up walking so much with a few daoju mates and lastly, even dig out my chem notes to read. mugging during csm??!! haiz.. this is how boring the whole thing was..luckily, my day turned for the better later in the afternn. me and yi fei, vanessa, lin ying and yit khai were supposed to discuss gpp after lunch. they suggested going to a classroom to discuss, cos got aircon:) luckily we found one tt was not locked -- A207. claudia, xin ying and jocelyn joined us too. yit khai plugged in his mp3 and we began to get quite high singing:) it was so fun singing and getting high lyk nobody's business in an empty classroom and a quite empty sch la. hope will hav more of this next time. that rly changed my mood abt by 270 degrees:) i'm determined to memorise the lyrics of at least 2 songs so i can sing to myself without looking at lyrics (i just cant memorise lyrics la-.-) yay and today, yuan han, gek yong, vanessa, rou ying and i decided to plan a daoju outing at partyworld during june hols. i'm so looking forward to it!=D
